CLL Alternatives

CLL and Supplements

Posted by: Denise on: February 16, 2014

cll and supplements There is a concerted effort on the part of the FDA to put supplements into the same class of regulation as pharmaceutical drugs. This is a move to make it too expensive for the supplement companies to stay in business, which would then put us all in the loving hands of Big Pharmaceutical companies. Not a good thing. I could say more, but Dr. Joseph Mercola has already done a good job of that. Click here to read his latest article on this subject.

I personally feel that the good quality supplements that I take for the CLL diagnosis I’ve had since 2001, along with my diet and lifestyle, are what is keeping me alive. Unfortunately, when I’ve sent letters to my Congressmen and Senators, they respond by letting me know that are planning to add red tape and regulation to the manufacture and sale of supplements in order to keep me “safe.” Excuse me, but I feel much “safer” when I’m able to buy and use my trusted supplements. Again, please read this article for more detail.

 

CLL Low Neutrophils ~ An Alternative that Works!

Posted by: Denise on: January 28, 2014

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I’ve been using Peak Immune off and on now since 2011 and I have to tell you that it works! Yes, I still carry the CLL diagnosis, but… if your neutrophils dip into dangerous territory, which mine do without the help of Peak Immune, then you are a prime case for starting conventional therapy. A low neutrophil count can be fatal.  So this is a very important blood marker.  In some ways, it’s like I’ve done a double blind on myself. What happened is this:

In May 2011 my hematologist told me that my neutrophils were dangerously low, at just about the .5 mark. The normal range for neutrophils is 1.96 – 9.72. We’re talking the ‘absolute’ neutrophil count, not the percentage. Don’t worry about the percentage! If you have a CLL diagnosis, that number will be well below normal and you can be functioning just fine. My hematologist (who I like) wanted me to try Rituxan, and some Neupogen. She knows that I’m a researcher, so we decided to wait for the next visit. At the first revisit, the count had gone back up on its own. At the two-month revisit I hadn’t taken anything as yet, and the neutrophil count dropped dangerously low–down to .59.

My doctor was genuinely worried about me. A person with a very low neutrophil count is susceptible to disease and illness and has little to fight it off. However, I was NOT interested in either of her choices. Rituxan is a monoclonal antibody that has worked in conjunction with chemo. I saw it as a gateway drug to hell. Neupogen is NOT a chemo. However, it is a drug for life, as once you take it, your body stops producing its own neutrophils and you become dependent upon it. Add to that that Neupogen is self-injected into the abdomen, and I was thinking—and saying—“no thank you!”

So back in 2011, at this time I took the Peak Immune product, as it was recommended by a Chinese herbalist, and because on the bottle it says that these pills increases NK (natural killer) cell activity. I thought that would have to be good enough and it was definitely worth a try. But it turns out that Peak Immune increased my neutrophil count. At the next blood test, my absolute neutrophil numbers went out of the danger territory and my percentage went up as well. After I finished a bottle or two, I figured that I was out of the woods and didn’t need the product any longer. After all, I was taking UBI (ultra-violet blood irradiation treatments) and keeping up with an extraordinarily healthy diet and lifestyle.

I did pretty well with my neutrophils after that, taking regular blood tests to keep track. However, in February of 2013 the count was right back down to .51. I panicked. I hadn’t given the Peak Immune the credit it deserved for keeping up the neutrophil count. But for some reason, I looked it up on iherb.com to see if anyone else had mentioned neutrophil counts in the reviews. There was only one review and it was very positive on this very subject! I was so excited. I thought it sounded familiar and I saw that the reviewer was from Michigan. Then in a complete airhead moment, I realized that that one reviewer was me! I had given credit to Peak Immune for helping with my neutrophil count, and posted it online. But I had forgotten this for myself!

Needless to say, I’ve been taking this product ever since, and thankfully my neutrophil count is in the safe target zone still. This is obviously not a cure, but it is a health and life-preserver. I give this pill my ultimate personal endorsement. And please keep in mind that I sell absolutely nothing on this site and get nothing from any company. Feel free to comparison shop on amazon and any other outlet.

Oh, and please write and let me know if it works for you!

Another CLL Success Story!

Posted by: Denise on: October 9, 2013

I apologize for not posting more often. Now and again I get emails asking if I’m still here–as in alive. Yes! I’m very much alive and relatively well. By relatively, I mostly mean my parents, both of whom are geriatric (82 and 87) and both of whom are ill (congestive heart failure and stroke) and are more time-consuming than I’d like. Between that and part-time work, and an occasional foray into writing my second mystery book, I just don’t make time for this blog.  This is a GOOD reason to be offline, however, compared to what other CLL-ers imagine.

But enough of the introduction. I’m writing because one of you (by “you” I mean one of the many CLL-ers who have contacted me via email) sent me this link: David Lingle’s CLL Healing Story

And here is the video itself:

This is very exciting! Every success story is exciting. It means that it is possible to beat this thing naturally. However…keep in mind that not everyone heals the same way. This is true when the conventional doctors give chemo (some will go into remission, some will not, some will die from the treatment), as it is with natural treatments. The only difference is that with natural treatment, it may not cure you, but it will probably make you healthier.

As I listened to the video, I noted that David Lingle, the man who is now CLL-free, is mostly vegan. Don’t think I want to do that again. It wasn’t so good for me.  When I was macrobiotic for many years I developed both osteoporosis AND anemia. I am now a raw food enthusiast…AND I include slow-cooked organic animal protein as well. I’m not cured. However, I’m doing relatively well. (I’m always as good as my last blood test. It isn’t easy, but most of the time I try to stick to my program and ignore an upcoming blood test. It’s better on the psyche.)

Even if I don’t plan on following this man’s whole program, I’m encouraged to see that he uses an infrared sauna. I’ve been considering that for a long time. I’ve heard from several of you that this helps. Please watch this and see whether this provides hope, inspiration and practical suggestions for your own recovery and good health.

 

CLL Update August 29, 2012

Posted by: Denise on: August 29, 2012

There is a reason there are so few posts on this blog.  Initially I was positive that I could totally reverse my CLL diagnosis.  This hasn’t happened — yet.  My plan for this blog was to be an uplifting, upbeat place for people with CLL (newly diagnosed or those trucking along like me) to get a positive feeling.  To get hope and inspiration.  I have to admit I’ve been discouraged more than once since starting this blog.  But…. I’m still here, and I still have NOT had any conventional treatment — even though it has been recommended.  I’ve managed to turn the ship (to use a metaphor), but I haven’t yet been able to get the ship back to shore.  It’s been eleven years, and truthfully, I’m doing fine, and living a relatively normal life.

My last problem was with my Neutophil count, which about a year an a half ago were dangerously low.  That was when my hematologist was recommending Rituxan and Neupogen.  I didn’t want the Rituxan because I looked it up on Google, and apparently it doesn’t work well without a jumpstart from some chemo (perhaps a little bit of chemo?), so I said no thank you!  The same for the Neupogen.  Neupogen comes in a shot, which you apply yourself to your stomach regent — twice a week.  If that wasn’t bad enough, I looked that up as well.  Neupogen does increase your Neutrophil count, but it causes your body to stop making its own.  Eventually you need more and more frequent shots.  This did not sound like  a good plan to me!

So I conferred with my son, a Nutritionist, who suggested that I take several bacteria-, virus- and fungus-fighting herbs.  So I started on a heavy-duty regimen of Olive Leaf, Pau D’arco, Coconut oil, and Goldenseal.   This helped.  The next time I had a blood test, my Neutrophil marker improved.  After that, I decided to start the Ultraviolet Blood Irradiation treatments at the Wycoff Wellness Center in East Lansing, Michigan.  Prior to this time, I’d heard of it, but was frightened of the process.  They withdraw blood, add a little heparin, and then the blood is returned back into your vein, after it passes through a machine that treats your blood with ultraviolet irradiation.  I have to admit that it sounded scary, risky even.  But now that it’s been more than a year, I have to say that it most likely has been a factor in keeping my Neutrophil count closer to normal.  I get no more warnings and I’m back to being tested everything 4 months (rather than monthly).  The people there are wonderful!  It isn’t scary at all, or risky.

So while I have not yet effected a complete reversal, I can confidently say that I am stable.  I am much more consumed by caring for my ailing parents than I am in thinking about my diagnosis.  (I don’t “have” a disease, I have a diagnosis.  This is a comfortable separation in my mind.)  I’m planning another trip to Texas for another nephew’s wedding.  And perhaps I’ll change the picture in the About section.  I’m not taking the time now to illustrate this post because I am busy.  I’m well, thank you very much.  But I’m working part-time, taking care of my parents part-time, and trying to squeeze writing a book into my spare time.  Oh, and my husband and I are getting more and more into the raw food diet.  (I really have to write this thing more often.)

If you are dealing with the emotional toll of CLL and you want to write me, please do!  I always have time for that.  You are my number one priority. You can contact me through this website/blog in the comment section, or email me directly at cllalternatives@gmail.com. Think happy thoughts and be well. – Denise

CLL Green Tea and Neem

Posted by: Denise on: October 7, 2011

It’s been a long time since I last posted.  There have been a lot of bumps on the road, and I haven’t felt much like it.  I’m still dealing with those bumps, that came in the form first of dangerously low neutrophils, (they’re still low, but not “dangerously”) and now, at my last visit, my WBC happily dropped 13.6 points to 34.2 (yay), but so did my RBC (3.3 to 2.88 – boo) and my HGB  went from a healthy 12.3 to a very concerning 10.4.  Yikes.  That’s been the way it’s been for me.  The white and red counts always go in the same direction — and they’re supposed to go in opposites.  Oh well.

Good News In CLL Land
That said, there is still good news out in CLL land and I haven’t been reporting on it.  First, I’ve found another person who’s doing well with Green Tea and Neem.  Here is a link to his testimony. I’ve been trying to contact him directly, as is my custom, and so far, no luck.  But isn’t his information exciting?  For those of you who prefer not to click, (I LOVE clicking myself), here is his info:

QUOTE: “I was diagnosed with Chronic Lymphocytic Leukemia (CLL) seven years ago. Even though I was still in the watch and wait stage, I was getting more and more infections requiring frequent doctors visits and even hospitalizations. My off-the-scale blood abnormalities confirmed that I was circling the drain.

But now my whole world has changed. I feel good again. No more infections. I have been free of all symptoms for many months now and I am no longer skeptical about the changes. At Roswell Park Cancer Institute they told me that my that last few blood tests were “perfect”.

I am not doing anything weird or taking anything that is not already being investigated by major cancer centers with promising results for treating CLL. All I am doing is taking higher doses of herbs than what one would normally take. While Green Tea is supposed to kill cancer cells in a test tube I had no illusions that simply drinking a few cups green tea would be enough to stop my downward spiral.

I read about the research at the Mayo Clinic and other places that show promising results with higher doses of ECGC (Green Tea Extract). However, medical research normally takes many years and with herbs even longer. I decided that I could not wait that long and started my own treatment based on reports from these various research efforts. This is what I have been taking per day:

Neem Leaf – 400mg Capsules: 4 capsules – three times a day

EGCG – 500 mg Capsules: 3 capsules in the morning on an empty stomach – it is best absorbed in a fasting condition (w/o Vitamin C)

2 capsules with 1000mg Vitamin C during day

2 capsules with 1000mg Vitamin C at bed time.

During the day I also drink 3 to 4 large cups of green tea using two tea bags and adding 200 mg of Vitamin C per cup.

The Vitamin C changes the stomach acidity which helps to absorb the green tea. I buy Vitamin C tablets and crush them in a pill crusher before dissolving them in hot water or green tea. (PharmAssure brand Vitamin C seems to have the fewest additives which may neutralize the acidity.) I buy the EGCG and the Neem Leaf Capsules in larger quantities over the internet. It comes to about $2.50 per day.

It’s been long enough now and I am no longer skeptical that my newly found good health is just a fluke. Other than taking all these supplements, my life is back to normal. I am a 70 year old male and I started running two miles a day. I am also taking normal doses of other vitamins and I don’t drink or smoke. I am not a doctor or a scientist. I am only giving a testimonial about my self-prescribed treatment and my personal results. Compared to chemo it has been a cake-walk. However, we are all different and everybody should go very slow with upping to these dosages and should always check with their doctor before taking anything new. ”

Posted on DailyStrength.org 08/26/11, 12:31 pm (go to link above to go to that web site) UNQUOTE
Reading his post caused me to look up new items — both Neem and Carnivora.  And I didn’t even tell you about what I’ve done since March — both Chinese Herbs and UVBI (ultraviolet blood irradiation).  But these all deserve a different post on a different day.  One thing that I’m convinced of, is despite the difficulties with the FDA, which seems intent on stopping anything helpful AND harmless, there always appears to be more out there that can help us get well from CLL!  As always, do research on your own, and try these pills carefully.  I already gave myself a twenty-four hour belly ache from downing too many green tea pills to start.  Now I have to start all over.  So read, review, and proceed with caution.

 

 

 

Apricot Seeds and CLL Leukemia

Posted by: Denise on: February 9, 2011

Apricot Seeds

My shrink-wrapped apricot seeds, coffee grinder and the pills I made from them.

Like Wayne, an Oklahoman I met via the Internet, I have have both CLL leukemia AND diverticulosis.  I’ve never been officially diagnosed with diverticulosis, but every time I eat nuts or seeds whole, I suffer.  Sometimes for days.

It’s not the chemical composition of the nuts and seeds.  I know this because when I grind them into dust (flaxseeds) or buy them already ground into paste (almond butter) I can eat them with wild abandon — and no after effects.

Part of my good health program started in 2007 when I started taking amygdalin pills from Mexico, along with enzymes and other supplements.  I was advised to also eat the apricot seeds — in addition to the pills.  I tried this twice early on in 2007 and 2008.  Both times I suffered severe stomach upset.  For days.

But after speaking to Wayne in Oklahoma for the third time, my husband encouraged me to buy a pill making device and grind my own apricot seeds in our coffee grinder (Mr Coffee brand, available everywhere).  I’ve been doing this for just a few months.  My last doctor visit showed  a marked improvement in my WBC (from 32 down to 23… yay!)  But those numbers do tend to bounce around.  I will report back after my next visit.

The general way to take amygdalin, B-17, laetrile (all pretty much the same thing) is: if you have cancer of any kind, it is generally recommended to work your way up to three 500mg tablets/day, one at each meal — in addition to eating the apricot seeds.  Once again, it is recommended to take one seed for every ten pounds of weight, each day.  I personally grind my seeds and then put them into capsules with the help of a pillmaker I found online, but many people are able to eat the seeds whole. (The taste of the seeds is not great — another incentive to grind and make into pills!)

Please note that I am not a doctor — and that I am giving information about what works for me, personally. If this intrigues you, first go to WorldWithoutCancer.uk.org and learn all you can about it.   I wholly recommend that you research and try things for yourself — carefully and safely.  Not to mention seeking out the advice of a health care practitioner who is familiar with vitamin B17.  I found my doctor on cancure.org.  He isn’t local — but I think it was well worth the trip!

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CLL and Green Tea

Posted by: Denise on: January 31, 2011

Green Tea for CLL

You can drink green tea for health benefits, but therapeutic use requires a green tea extract, taken as a supplement.

There is a lot of literature out there about CLL leukemia and green tea.  Go ahead and Google “CLL green tea” and you will come up with pages of references.  Green tea is supposed to halt the progression of CLL and, in some cases, improve symptoms.  That’s wonderful.  The good part of this is that it’s a food item (when taken as tea) and a food extract when taken as a supplement.  If you’re interested in a good quality, green tea extract, go to Life Extension.

Do I use it?  Yes and no.  I do drink green tea, practically every day. But not in therapeutic doses.  That’s because, in my case, my platelet count dropped noticeably each time I tried it at recommended levels.  Worse yet, there was no discernible benefit.  The studies I’ve looked up indicate that green tea does, in fact, affect the “aggregation” or clumping together of platelets — a good thing for people with heart disease.  While I can find no literature to back up my experience, it is what it is.  I do reserve the right to try green tea in therapeutic doses (beverage AND supplements) in the future.  But for now, I’m sticking to my already very-full and somewhat complicated program for good health.

If you want more information, you might take a look at the Mayo Clinic study in progress till March 2011.

 

CLL Alternative Protocol

Posted by: Denise on: December 16, 2010

Here is the list of what I take and what I do, at this time in my life (it has changed many times) to be well and get well.  My goal is, and had been, since July 2005, to become cancer-free.  Others have done it and so can I.  (By implication, you can too!) There is no one path.  Unfortunately, we all have to find our own formula.  While that sounds daunting, to me it’s a heck of a lot better than counting on one professional who will give you fifteen minutes of his or her time, each visit.  You can give yourself as much time as you need!  Be your own health care advocate, and you can spend an hour or more EVERY DAY on yourself.  There isn’t a doctor alive — conventional or alternative — who can do that for you.  You can only do that for yourself.

Between Meals
(before breakfast, mid-afternoon, before bed)

  • Univase Forte enzymes, 6 total,  2 pills/3X a day
  • Apricot Seed pills (grind and make myself) 4 pills, 3X/day btw. meals
  • Natural Thyroid 60mg, 1X, 1/2hour prior to breakfast
  • Wheatgrass Juice (I grow and juice my own) 4-5 ounces, every morning 1/2 hour before breakfast
  • Low Dose Naltrexone 4.5mg, before bedtime

Breakfast

 

  • Actifolate 800 mcg
  • Magnesium 200mg
  • B Complex 1 pill
  • Black Currant Seed Oil 1000mg total – 2softgel
  • B-17 Laetrile 500mg
  • Vit C 1000mg
  • Bioflavinoid 1000 mg
  • Vit E 200 IU softgel
  • D3 1000 IU softgel
  • CoQ10 50 mg ubiquinol (not ubiquinone)
  • Primrose Oil 1300 mg softgel
  • Calcium 250 mg
  • Probiotic 1 gram 20 bill organisms, 12 strains
  • Broccoprotect 1
  • Regenemax (5mg silicon) 1
  • Reduced Glutathione 300 mg
  • Iron Pill (Iron Glycinate) 29mg, 4X/WEEK (every other day)

Lunch

  • Vit D3 1600 to 2000 IU dry (Twinlabs Allergy D)
  • Potassium 99mg
  • CoQ10 50 mg unbiquinol (not ubiquinone)
  • Zinc Asporotate 15mg
  • Iodoral 25mg
  • B-17 Laetrile 500mg
  • Selenium 200 mcg
  • Grapeseed Extract (every day @ lunch, one month on, one month off)

 

Dinner

 

  • Magnesium 200 mg
  • B-17 Laetrile 500 mg
  • Fish Oil 1000 mg (Omega 3,5,6,7,9)
  • Curcumin 665mg
  • CoQ10 50mg unbiquinol (not ubiquinone)
  • Vit D3 1000 IU softgel
  • Primrose Oil 1300 mg
  • Calcium 250 mg
  • Joint Ease (glucosamine 250mg, chondroitin 250mg, queritin 250mg, taurine 250mg)
  • Vit K2 100 mcg (bone health)

 

Immune-Boosting Butter
1tablespoon/day (more if I want an extra immune boost)
Recipe:

  • 1 stick room temp organic butter
  • 1/2 cup organic cold-pressed virgin olive oil
  • 10 capsules probiotic
  • 10 capsules colostrum
  • 6 capsules l glutamine
  • 1 tablespoon raw honey (local)

Empty capsules into a bowl.  Add olive oil, butter and honey.  Blend with immersion blender (that’s what I use).  Cover and refrigerate.

D’Mannose
I use this, as needed for UTIs (urinary tract infections).  This has been, quite possibly, a life saver.  While I still carry a prescription for antibiotic in my wallet, I rarely, if ever, use it.  This deserves a page of its own.

Diet

  • NO sugar
  • NO gluten
  • NO white bread
  • NO refined salt
  • NO processed foods
  • NO store-bought baked goods
  • NO nuts or seeds (unless powder-fine or smooth paste

What I DO eat:

  • YES Organic greens
  • YES Organic vegetables
  • YES Organic fruit (small amount/day)
  • YES Organic grass fed beef
  • YES Organic poultry
  • YES Organic free-range eggs
  • YES Wild-caught salmon and other fish
  • YES Organic olive oils and other oils
  • YES Sprouted lentils, grains
  • YES Almond butter
  • YES Rice Cakes
  • YES Oatmeal
  • YES Organic butter
  • YES Raw milk yogurt
  • YES Greens/Fruit Juice in my Vitamix

It IS hard to eat out, but I manage.  I mostly try to limit eating out of the home to two times a week (total, includes lunch AND dinner).

Exercise
I walk my dogs every day. I exercise for 15 minutes 3X/week on our elliptical trainer.  I lift weights 3X/week for my osteoporosis and heart health.  I can now run up a flight or two of steps without getting overly winded.  Couldn’t do that 10 years ago.  It pays to exercise!

Sleep
My goal is to be in bed by 10pm, and to get at least 8 hours of sleep each night.  I feel wonderful when I achieve this goal.  I’ve read again and again that the sleep before midnight is the best healing sleep. It makes sense.  Try this.  It is one of the best things you can do for your immune system and your health.  It’s free –  and you can feel the results literally overnight.

Mindset
Don’t worry.  Be happy. I know they have studies to prove it, but who need studies?  We all know we feel like crap when we stress out and worry.  Racing pulse.  Palpitations.  Bile in mouth.  How good can that be for you?  The experts tell us to meditate.  I’ve tried it, and it always feels weird to me.  I prefer writing in my journal or reading something relaxing.  Either one gets me away from myself, and helps me to relax and stop stressing.

That’s it for now.  I think that you can see that it takes a lot of time, effort, not to mention cash, to take care of yourself.  Whatever I’m doing is infinitely less expensive than chemo treatments.  None of it has side effects.  And I feel great.  Please write with any questions.

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Getting Well from CLL Leukemia

Posted by: Denise on: December 8, 2010

CLL Success Stories. There are two success stories, so far, both men, who have overcome their CLL Leukemia and either achieved remission  — or became cancer free! — without conventional treatment.  We can think of this as a miracle (which it is) or a sign of possibility and hope (which it is too!).

I was first elated to hear the news that these people exist — and then a bit deflated when their methods did not work for me.  I tried all or parts of each of their personal protocols, but to my severe frustration, it hasn’t yet resulted in my remission.  That said, I haven’t given up.  There is still a message of hope and possibility.

The first CLL Leukemia success story I found was Steve Freier.  You can read his whole story by clicking on his name and going to his site.  After a short-lived unsuccessful conventional treatment, Steve tried several protocols and eventually reached remission after removing his root canals and taking coral calcium.

The second CLL Leukemia success story is Hessel Baartse.  Once again, click on his name and read his miraculous story.  Hessel reached health with the help of a dentist (he also had his root canals — and mercury fillings — removed), as well as a detailed diet and supplement regimen.  All his CLL markers are in the normal range, and he is living his life in Australia with his wife and family.  If you read his site, you will see that Hessel credits his faith in God and his belief in his own good health.

CLL and Root Canals. What they both obviously have in common is that they removed their root canals.  I will be writing another article about this, as I, too, have had that surgery done to improve my health.  I’ve also followed both their regimens, plus much, much more.  I may not be cancer-free, but I am healthy and well — after 9.5 years (now, at the time of the update of this post, it’s been 14 years!), with no conventional intervention.

It can be done!  What we can learn from Steve and Hessel is that it can be done!  We can all get well.  We just have to find our own way, our own combination of diet, exercise, herbs, supplements, and even drugs.  There is no set standard of therapy, even amongst conventional doctors.  Humans are NOT one size fits all — in clothing or in medical treatment.

So please read this site, as I add more and more information.  Check out the links.  Do some research of your own.  Keep a positive attitude (easier said than done, but do-able) and you will prevail!  If you have good news and/or information please write and share it with this site.

 

CLL Leukemia Diagnosis: Overcoming the Fear

Posted by: Denise on: November 30, 2010

fear

Now that it’s been over nine years since my diagnosis of CLL leukemia, I have to say that my mental state is quantifiably better than it was July 2001, when I first had to deal with it.  It helps enormously that I am still stage one, and have remained “steady” without the help of any conventional therapies.  Not a drop of chemo.  No prednisone.  This despite many harrowing brushes with low platelets, dropping red counts, rising white counts, hematuria (blood in urine) and other freak-out factors.

Like many CLL diagnosis “victims,” I experienced sadness, grieving, easy tears, insomnia, and morbid thoughts. At one point, I even started thinking carefully before investing in something lasting like, say, a leather coat.  It might be “wasteful,” I thought at the time.  After all, I wasn’t sure how many seasons I’d be around to enjoy it.  I was overcome by negative thoughts and FEAR.  Fear of dying.  Fear of death.  Fear of leaving my family behind.  This made me overwhelmingly sad.

How I overcame fear: Action! Once I realized that I could not and would not count on medical doctors to keep me alive, this truth set me free.  Once I started to take charge of my health, doing all the things you can read about on this site (and elsewhere), my mindset changed.  It started with my macrobiotic diet (which I ironically no longer follow) that I felt a sense of calm and peace.  I started to know in my heart that I was going to be fine.  I was planning to live.  That was in 2005.  It is now nearly the end of 2010 and I’m still here, living my life, doing what I have to do to be well.  But I am also quietly and calmly confident that I am going to be “here” for a long time.

The first step to wellness. So if you are depressed, worried, fearful, or in any way devastated about your CLL leukemia diagnosis (or that of a loved one), take heart!  You don’t have to curl up into a ball of worry.  There are things that you can do.  The more things you try (and measure with frequent blood tests) the better your chance to prevail.  Saying goodbye to fear is your first step on the road to wellness.

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